Nothing strange

So as I said, I went to the park last night. Nothing really strange happened. Didn't find anything, see anything, feel anything, etc. Still have two more to check out though.

Oh and by the way, the reason I was asking about 'Him' wearing a hat...I had a weird dream the other night. There was this man standing and staring at me. It was dark and he I couldn't make out any details but he was tall and wearing a big gaucho hat and what looked like a duster of sorts. Nothing really happened, he just kinda stood there, but it freaked me out and I thought it might have been 'Him'. But it would appear that this was just a weird dream. I didn't really do too much research on 'Him' because one of the first things I read was that the more you know about 'Him', the more likely you are to become a victim. So maybe it was just my subconscious making up an image of him since I don't really know what he looks like. I don't know...I'm writing it off as just a dream.

I'm gonna go throw up now because my stomach has been giving me a hard time since I woke up. Blech. I'll tell you when I hit up the next park.

Going to the first park tonight

So I'm going to the one of the parks tonight after i get off work tonight. Shanes coming and so is another friend of mine. As far as they know it's just to hang out. I'm taking my video camera just so if anything weird happens I'll have some proof. I'll update later tonight or tomorrow to let y'all know how it went.

Wish me luck.

Possible lead

My sister's been in and out of the hospital the last couple weeks with gallstones so I haven't had much of a chance to sit with the journal until the other day. I read through it, several times, and the only thing that really caught my attention was a mention of the park. Right when things start going wonky in her journal, she mentions seeing 'Him' at the park.

Now I haven't researched this 'Him' too heavily, because one of the first things I found out about him was that the more you know, the more likely it is that he'll find you. And I'd rather that didn't happen.

But anyways, she didn't say which park, just 'the park'. There are three parks in town that I know we'd been too, so I'm gonna try and hit them up sometime in the next couple weeks. Wish I had my camera to take pictures if anything weird popped up.

I realize I haven't been using my Twitter much for those of you following me, but I'll try and get more active on it so you guys don't have to go so long without hearing from me. So yeah, I'll let you know when I hit up the parks.

Oh and by the way...the 'Him' you guys know about....he doesn't wear a hat does he?

Apology and Update

Alright sorry it's taken me so long to update, Shane's got a busy schedule and I've been trying to go about things as usual to avoid being sent to the loony bin. Anyways, I was finally able to sit down with him the other day and talk. I recorded it on my phone but for some reason when I uploaded it onto my computer it was all garbled and fucked up, so I'm just gonna have to transcribe it (it still works on my phone for some reason)

I decided not to tell Shane exactly everything that's been happening. At least not the bit about me having dated Jenna, and how nobody else remembered her. I didn't want him to think I was crazy and leave, I needed his opinion of the journal. I told him that this journal came from a friend of a friend. I believe I've prefaced this well enough, so here it is:

I: So what do you think?
S: Well...with things like this, it's hard to say. When it comes to saying whether or not something has some kind of...other-worldly influence, there isn't ever any definitive answer. But being a believer in this kind of stuff means you have to be a skeptic too. There's a lot of scams, a lot of bullshit, and a lot of stupid people who see shit that isn't there. (sits back) But...there is something strange about all this.
I: Ya, tell me something I don't know.
S: Alright. Have you seen this symbol before? (points to a circle with an X drawn through it. this symbol pops up a lot and is on every page at least twice near the end of the journal)
I: No, not really.
S: There are a lot of theories about this symbol. It started as a variation of the Theta symbol, an archaic form of it. In Athens, they used it as a symbol for death, think of it sort of like the skull and crossbones of ancient times. Prisoners awaiting execution would be branded with it...so some more...shady sects adopted it as a symbol of their own.
I: But...why would she be drawing this then?
S: Well there's another school of thought about it. In Egypt the symbol was used to represent the soul. Some believed drawing or repeatedly using the symbol could strengthen your resolve against evil spirits. A ward of sorts.
I: So which is it?
S: How the hell am I supposed to know? At the end of the day, it's just a circle with an X through it. We're the ones that assign meaning to it.
(pause)
I: So what do you think it means in this context?
S: It's hard to say. She was obviously afraid of someone, and she obviously believed that he was very powerful. Whether or not that's an indicator of something...paranormal or something more explainable, like cult activity...well I'd have to meet with her to discuss that.

We both just sat there for a minute, then decided to end the conversation. There wasn't really much else to cover really. But he stayed over for a while, we caught up and had some food. We were eating, and I remembered those blogs Daniel had linked to me, so I asked Shane if he'd ever heard of this Slender Man. I didn't record this conversation, but the way he reacted I wish I had. He got really quiet and asked me how I'd heard about it. I told him I'd just been dicking around online and found it. He said it was a dumb urban legend and that I have better things to do with my time than read fairy tales. Then alllllllll of a sudden he had to leave. But as he was walking out, he turned around and said to me:

"Try and know what you're getting into, man".

Then he left.

Ya. So that freaked me out. I think all I can really do is comb the journal some more to see if I missed any clues about where she might have gone.

Paranormal Activity 3: This Time It's Happening to Me

So after looking through Jenna's journal, doing some research online, and trying to come to terms with the fact that all memory of her exsistence has vanished off the face of the goddamn Earth, I've realized that if I want to figure out what's going on, I need to make a plan.

Now clearly this isn't some normal runaway or kidnapping. This is quite obviously something more. This is something...strange.

My good friend Shane is majoring in Paranormal Studies, so he's going to sit down with me sometime this week and we're going look over Jenna's journal and see if he thinks there's anything out of the ordinary. I mean, obviously there is, but he'll be able to give more insight than I can.

So yeah. Stay tuned for that.

Explanation

Ok sorry for leaving you guys hanging for so long I'm still trying to figure out what the fuck is going on. No one can remember Jenna.

So last Friday, as I told you guys, Jenna's mom filed a missing person report with the police because she hadn't been home in a couple of days. I went to her house later that night to talk with her mom. I went up to her room and I grabbed her diary. She hid it up in her ceiling, and I figured if the cops had searched her room they wouldn't have found it. I didn't tell her mom because I didn't really know if there was going to be anything in it, and I didn't want expose her private thoughts or whatever...I just didn't want her mom to have her diary if it wasn't important. I don't know what I was looking for in it....but I wasn't prepared for what I found.

When I got home I looked through it. At the beginning of it, everything was normal, but near the end...for about the last two months, in almost every journal entry she made, Jenna mentioned some man. She never mentions him by name, but she always referred to him as "Him". I think the capitalization there is important, it was always capitalized.  Anyway, as far as I could tell, it sounded like this guy was stalking her. She talks about seeing 'Him' outside of school, outside of her work...she even says she saw 'Him' outside my house when she was over once.

Anyways I figured "Hey! This is pretty serious stuff and I should probably take this to the police!" So the next morning I go to the police station and I tell them I have some evidence for Jenna's case, aaaaaaaaand they told me that there was no such case open. I was in the right place, I had them check with every possible spelling I could think of for her name...nothing. So I went to Jenna's house. And her mom didn't know who I was. And she said she didn't have a daughter.

And I started freaking out.

I talked to my parents. They don't remember her. I talked to all my friends. They don't remember her. I looked on Facebook - her profile page is just fucking gone. Her twitter's gone. Her old blog is gone. It's like every FUCKING trace of her has just disappeared off the goddamned face of the earth.

I've been dating her for four years. I do NOT have schizophrenia, this is NOT a fucking Beautiful Mind, she isn't my imaginary friend, she is REAL. I am not fucking crazy. I am NOT fucking crazy. I have no idea what is going on but I know that Jenna is missing, she's in danger, SOMEONE is following, and I AM going to find her.

I'm not fucking crazy.

Please tell me I'm not crazy.

Ok. This may seem like an odd request, but would everyone out there reading please comment if you can see the stuff about Jenna in the posts or if you at least remember me talking about Jenna before.

I'll explain later, but please, please, even if you don't comment regularly, comment now. I think I'm losing my mind, and I need to know there are people who can still remember Jenna.